Beautful Sychronicity

It has been no secret that I really didn't want to move back to the town I lived in before moving to Germany. I was dreading it, in fact. However, this is where the signs pointed, and after dragging my feet for months, I finally moved back.

To say that this step has been rewarded would be an understatement.

My son and I stayed with a friend of mine for nearly a week when we first got back. The day I started to look for our own place we viewed an apartment that ended up to be too small for us. I was disappointed because it was in a part of town that I would have like to have lived in. But, I had to go with my gut despite really wanting that place to work out.

The next day I found 3 places that I like and called the numbers listed. One of the places kept standing out to me. In fact, it looked illuminated on the paper. It was really no surprise to me when the landlord for that apartment was the first one to call me back. What was a surprise is she turned out to be a good friend from about 15 years ago who I had lost contact with.

Just based on the ads this apartment was not my fist choice. The first and biggest problem I had with it was it was a 4-plex, not a house. I wanted my own little house so that I could plant a garden. I had been looking forward to growing my own veggies for a long time. But I went and looked at the apartment anyway.

The rooms were large. It had two bedrooms so my son would have his own room. There was a bathtub and shower in the bathroom, which was great because our last house only had a shower. The location was absolutely perfect, in the part of town I wanted to be in. A grocery store and laundromat within easy walking distance, very important because I don't have a driver's license as it expired while I was in Germany, and I don't have a car yet either. The apartment is across the street from an elementary school, so the little guy would have a playground. Everything looked great and the landlord (my old friend's husband) gave the keys right then and there.

It looked like they were in the middle of landscaping, and I asked what they were going to plant. He said he wasn't sure yet and asked if I had any preference. I told him that I really wanted to grow some vegetables and he said I could plant whatever I wanted. I was thrilled!

I met my old friend later that day to sign the lease and instead of having to prepay my rent because I don't have a job (like I had anticipated having to do) she didn't even make me pay a deposit! What luck!!

We moved in and have found the people in our area to be so nice. People say hi and smile when you pass them on the sidewalk. Strangers stop for a little chat. Everyone smiles at my son and they say nice things to him. It so opposite from where we came from! I say Thank You everyday that we were directed to move back to this town.

My son is thriving, getting back to his old happy self. He gets more exercise and is sleeping better. And I am happy to finally be home.

Obsidian

This morning I had a short dream in which I was shopping in a store that had a small display of gemstones on the end of an isle. I was looking at what they had available in my favorite gemstone color; sea green. But there was a voice that kept whispering to me, "Obsidian."

I knelt down to the bottom of the display and found the obsidian, picked one up, and marveled at how good it felt in my hand. This was certainly not a stone I would have chosen on my own due to it's black color, however this one in my hand was quite pretty as it shimmered a bit with other colors.

After the dream I did some research on the metaphysical properties of obsidian. It is really wonderful how well this stone will be useful to me in my new venture and adventure.

Obsidian is volcanic lava cooled quickly. It is a natural glass. A stone of protection, it was probably one the first stones to be used for arrowheads and knives. A stone of Honesty, Sincerity and Truth, Obsidian will bring out the Warrior spirit in you. It can help reach into your subconscious, reclaim yourself, and help you find or re-discover forgotten abilities within yourself.

Protection: It can help to prevent negative energy from effecting you, and also help keep your thoughts from turning negative. (emotionally beating yourself up?) It is also a very grounding stone.
Insight: Its mirror like surface reveals its special ability to act as a mirror and help you see your own flaws honestly. It doesn't abandon you there, but will also provide insight into correcting those flaws.
Change: People in 12 Step Programs can use it as a powerful tool of change, aiding your desire to alter behavior, change harmful communication patterns or overcome obsessions.

Obsidians forceful dose of cutting reality can be softened if necessary for shy or timid people by combining it with aventurine, rose quartz, and Chrysocolla. The other alternative, is to use Snowflake Obsidian, which has many of the same properties, but a softer touch.

Color
Usually black

Physical Healing Properties
relieves pain, Circulation: its energies can help those hands & feet that seem to be constantly cold.

Careers
Entrepreneurs, Inventor

I don't do too much with crystals. I'm not one of those new-agers... ;-) But I liked the way the stone felt in the dream, and since it felt like a message for me I decided (while still in the dream) that I would buy an obsidian stone next week.

The information I found during research was like an exclamation point on a dream message.

Love Songs (part deux)

It’s happened again. Love songs. In my sleep.

I especially like getting song lyric messages when the original words are different than the ones I hear. It seems like more of a message that way, rather than just singing a song in my head. It feels more like it is meant just for me.

The words from this morning’s song were,

“Do you believe in love at first sight, I think I do. We’re hanging out with one another. Those’r the best days of my life…”

It sounds all nice and lovey-dovey, right? So why does this upset me? I’ve been down this road before.

I have let the signs lead me into two different relationships. One was quite lovely for what it was… a confusion with a friend. Thankfully we ended up right back where we started; friends. The other- well, I ended up marrying him, and will soon be divorcing him. And while I am very thankful for the lessons I learned in this relationship, it was hard. Every day was hard. I was made to feel inferior and stupid. Two things I am not. The point is, I don’t want this to ever happen again. I do not want to be lead into another relationship that is designed for my spiritual growth . Enough already. I am weary and war-torn (and quite possibly a bit dramatic). ;-)

When enough time has passed I will want something easy, and passionate, relaxing, and lasting. A relationship among equals. And I will never again change my life or lifestyle for a man.

So there.

I'm Hearing Love Songs in My Sleep

I hadn't heard of or thought of this song in absolutely ages, but this morning I woke up with it playing in my head. It was so clear, it was like the radio was on.

It was the theme song for the movie Tootsie.

Below I have highlighted the parts of the song that I heard:

Time... I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life...
Lying on the sand, watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting home for me...

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you...
All of my life...

Looking back as lovers go walking past...
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last

If I found the place
Would I recognize the face?
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it might be you

So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And we've so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time...
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life...

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before...

Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life...
It's you..
It's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...

Maybe it's you...
Maybe it's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...

Maybe it's you...
Maybe it's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...

I admit, this is a pretty cheesy song! But when I woke, it left me with such a feeling of peace, calm, and love.

Of course, this comes on the heals of the reading I had last week with Doug Upchurch where-in a love interest appeared. And there have been other signs and messages...

I don't want it. However, I have noticed that what I want does not always coincide with what the Universe is ready to provide.

We'll just have to see what happens. :-/