Trust your instincts.
Don’t worry that your views are not mainstream, or do not fit into the belief systems of others.
We are all moving in the same direction.
We all have the same goal. Enlightenment.
This life is not all there is.
There are many more levels after your Earthly mission has been accomplished.
There are realities that you have not conceived of. Each has its own purpose.
Our goal is not to become One, but to realize that we are One already.
There are other aspects of being One that will be discovered with each new level you move into.